The place where I work is known for great work-life balance, but I seem to struggle with it lately. As you have been seeing my basic challenges from sleeping on time to waking up early, de-cluttering, organizing the home, trying to lead a minimalist life style, home made meals from fresh veggies, and also am very active with other extra-curricular activities that leaves me almost not much time. The current commute does not let me read any books, it is so much of walking every where and I kind of count that as an exercise. I certainly do not enjoy audio books or music as I tend to sway a lot with some or the other thoughts.
The simple decision of preparing meals, buying veggies sometimes stresses me out. At times, I do with all the passion and interest, when work related stress goes up, the simple things seems like a huge mountain. They just add up. Like cleaning the home, dishes, organization, buying groceries, laundry, impromptu travelling needs, meeting friends, calling back people, yard work and the list goes on.. How do you manage it all? And people with kids / special needs/ aging parents – how do you do it all? I feel exhausted and tired without much responsibilities for other lives yet?
But, I definitely am on the better side, on a positive note – I get to hang out with my friends whenever I want, I can simply go off to places on spur of a moment, I have work from home option which lets me travel and spend time with friends or family, eat outside every meal every day, I can choose not to do dishes, clean home, organize or de-clutter or cooking. But, I really want to do it all. The transition is harder. I just need to become efficient at it.
The thing that bothers me by looking at my colleagues is – I see them struggle, sleep deprived, not able to concentrate, these women who were known for efficient, after managing home with 2 kids are so tired, and they crave for a break. On the other hand, I see men with two kids are absolutely fine, they work more too, their efficiency does not go down and many are in better positions and definitely make more than women. Now, it only makes me wonder if it is the women who take all the responsibility at home and men have it all easy ?? why? why isn’t there an equal contribution? I am not sure now, if there is something called work-life-balance exists in the first place. Or the worst, I do not know how to balance it??
They say – if you enjoy what you do, there is no question of work-life-balance. is it not? my point is – just because i love something so much, is the life worth living stressing oneself out? where do you draw the line?