How deep can one go given a problematic situation of another’s life?
It is very difficult for anyone to understand the breadth and depth of the pain of what other person is going through. I can definitely empathize with the person but definitely cannot feel as much intensity of it as them.
I also realized over a period of time that my brain is designed such a way that even when a major problem arises; my brain automatically shuts off after some time. Before it shuts off, my brain simulates exhaustive thinking of so many “what if’s”, “if only’s” , “wishes”, “lots of crying” and “impulse to call some dear one and speak heart out” and then vroom.. it goes off into sleeping mood for “re-energizing” and at times cycle repeats for few times before it makes peace by accepting reality. I never realized about the extent to which my brain can accommodate my emotions and could not less appreciate this amazing engine of the human body.
I always thought, world is filled with nicest people and beautiful things until I was hit, real badly with amazingly 360 degree turn around of my perceptions towards the world. Although, news channels, papers and stories from close buddies did inform me about the meanest and selfish people and certainly I was warned about it much ahead of time and always. But, I had so much pride of my judgment about people whom I choose to associate with to an extent that I never realized until I faced the sweetest poison-ers you can ever imagine thinking of. I was so blind-folded that I did not realize their actions meant something menacing to one’s life until so late in the game that it not only brought down my self-confidence that I was so proud of but also created a dent in many of my close relationships with my dear friends and families. This hurts!
Luckily, I am not stuck hanging in there for long, I accept the reality, stop asking myself with a common question- “why me?” and move on with head on shoulders. I dislike people sympathizing with me. I think Life as a game; some times it’s fun and exhilarating and at times difficult and exhausting. And I decided to play the game well. I deliberately thank all the people in my life who have helped me directly or indirectly in shaping my personality.
I digress. My thought process has always been shallow, may be that is why it helped me focus on other things well but also caused irreversible damage. If someone tells me something indirectly – I really cannot decode it, this sometimes helped but most of the times it kept me in dark (you can say – Innocence at it’s best). And, if I look back and understand what every one meant at different stages during my life – I cannot believe how I even put up with them. May be that is why I was able to make friends so easily and I still do now …but with caution. It is very difficult for me to find negative qualities or bad intentions in other person. I am not quite sure if –because the way I brought up? Did I get lucked out all the time? Or haven’t had enough experiences in life that taught me lessons hard way? or was it the case that I cannot accept the reality? Or is it just my brain takes only positivity even from the meanest person you introduce me to.
No wonder my friends find it difficult to convince me about some personalities they already knew about. I try to find logic in every action – but after all we are human beings and there is no logic for every action.. may be there is.. may be there isn’t! I heard some one saying – love begins when logic ends.. and it is a Mystery! Science is where logic is.
Even, in this post – I think I am superficial..I barely went in depth of the very topic I choose to write about. My brain just doesn’t want me to go any deeper. If I do think deeper, every thing seems like “we are result of cause and effect factor of Universe” and there is no hope, no future, no beginning and no ending, it looks like a flat land with no-where to go. Or a deeper understanding of things makes you see any and every problem human faces is next to non-considerable at all. Oh.. wow, this attitude makes me eligible for becoming one of the spiritual leader and I can totally brain-wash my followers and become rich and popular *winks*.. a good idea isn’t?
Now, you tell me what do you think makes sense to you?
P.S: I can’t stop laughing of how my brain processes the information. After all, Attitude is the name of the game!